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Released July 23, 2021
4 songs, 14 minutes

1. Far Go

Swain

03:22

I’ve been around I never found much to do I spent the nights Wondering where I would find you And then I saw you there Upon a chair above the snow Said when’d you dye your hair You said no it’s a natural tone And two weeks later I’ve found my way Down mountains and valleys Rhetorical space You said all that I need is A time and a place So I found a window And I shaved my face I made a plan To wash my hands of naïveté But my inhibitions Are on a mission to block my way But I don’t know how far I’ll go In words I’ll travel to the ends of the earth In the flesh I’m half the worth And I don’t know how long I’ll stay These sheets are crushing me day by day Anyway I’ve been around And now I’m held down by my fear I spend the nights wishing I could disappear

2. In Distant Memory

Swain

03:41

You come to me in dreams some nights A phantom of a past desire I was blind before you gave me sight I cannot put out the fire For the first time in distant memory It can be just me standing here No need to think or visualize Or picture someone near For the first time in my life I can lift myself up off the ground And stop spewing hate that it might be too late To have someone around But surely I’m still satisfied without your satisfaction But I assure you that’s a lie But I don’t need a distraction Surely I’ve been here before just staring at the ceiling But I feel inclined to close the door, cause I’ve lost my feel for feeling In distant memory, I can still feel so alive And I can’t erase the best days of my life For the first time in distant memory I don’t need you for me to feel alive Yeah

3. Reverie No. 21

Swain

03:39

Pull the car over and stand in the street What’s in your pocket, pierce with your teeth Now stand with your arms out and hit the concrete Strain to remember what happened to me Wake up and pray that you’ll get through today But time stands still when you’re asleep Frozen in place, your memory’s erased Soon you’ll forget your reverie But I never felt this way any time I was awake And I never felt like this but I missed what happened today Pull the car over and see what you’ve found Look at the windmills just turning around Lake Erie’s churning, Ontario’s sound Blizzards are burning, the world’s spinning around Then get down and pray that you’ll get through today But time stands still when you’re asleep Frozen in place, your memory’s erased And soon you’ll wanna wake up, wake up, wake up Cause I never felt this way any time I was awake And every night when I close my eyes, I can take the time to escape Pull the car over and stand in the street Empty your pockets and walk to the sea Cause I never felt like this but I missed what happened today Cause I never felt anything like this any time that I was awake

4. Burning Blizzards

Swain

03:45

I’ve been in this bed so long I feel like the roof’s closing in I don’t know where to begin I feel like I’m outside looking in Can you tell me who wins We just start dancing at whim We act like we’re grown but we’re kids Now I’m weighed down by my limbs But any day, I’ll drive off from paradise’s suburbs Into a new world I’ll drive away and wash my hands of burning blizzards But the burns remain Haven’t been in this room so long The walls seem they’re made out of glass And I can see everything past The fortress with flags at half mast Someday I’ll come back And finally get the last laugh But for now I’m stuck honing my craft Trying to write my final draft But someday, I’ll descend your staircase with a light pack And never look back I’ll walk away and wash my hands of burning blizzards But the burns remain It’s simpler to have been sheltered than overexposed And purity was everything I ever ran away from Now I long for it I wanna run away and wash my hands of burning blizzards But the burns remain They remain They remain

Far Go

Photo credits to Abigail Wachter and her Polaroid camera at the Sportsmen's in Black Rock some night in 2018. Additional credits to Nick Ceppaglia looming in the background, an unknown fingerprint, reverb, a two-bedroom apartment, the shimmer of string lights, mellotron, a red bass on blue flannel, a million memories made and dreams dreamt, and the fleeting feeling of attaching “not” to “yet.”

Far Go

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