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Released June 8, 2020
10 songs, 39 minutes

Written & Recorded By Patrick Swain
Additional contributions by Nic (Vocals, Track 7).

1. Satellites 04:28

I remember the sand in the pages and sand in the sheets I looked up at the clouds through the ages and they bade me speak Don’t want to come off as some hopeless, tired romantic but I wish the bruises on my neck were yours, not the Atlantic’s And every time I go away from home would you grow wings and fly Into the gleaming maze of satellites before my eager eyes And all I do or say Is the product of the place In which I was raised And wherever I go I just wanted you to know I can see that satellite too I remember the sunsets before hot summer nights The sun gave me August to live and September to write Not tryna come off as some hopeless, tired romantic but I just wish the bruises on my neck were yours, not the Atlantic’s, oh And every time I go away from home would you grow wings and would you fly Into the gleaming maze of satellites before my eager eyes And all I do or say Is the product of the place In which I was raised And wherever I go I just wanted you to know I can see that satellite too

2. Whatever I Said 04:00

I was running my hands through your hair When your eyes said do you want to go upstairs Or maybe it was all just in my head We weren’t in conditions to recall just what was said I was half awake when I realized my mistake because I let you go like dozens more before you But I can’t shake your image sprawled across a leather sofa because I can only hope I didn’t bore you Whatever I said or whatever I didn’t say Whatever was meant to be just never came Do you want to feel that something You just want to feel that something today I can’t help but think that I may think too much about us The fear of missing out gets worse with age Remember at the show when you would sing along the loudest Now you’re the one I look for when I’m on stage Whatever I said or whatever I didn’t say Do you regret just letting the night slip away Do you want to feel that something You just want to feel that something today I remember how you looked Like a picture in a scrapbook Carpe diem, carpe noctem too So while I can I’ll keep you close I’ve been told I’m too verbose but My words fail me when I look at you And whatever I said or whatever I didn’t say It drives me crazy cause it’s already May And I still haven’t felt that something I just wanna feel that something today

3. In the Back Rooms 03:35

You don’t need to be the richest bones in the graveyard So you try for second place but You don’t want to see the marks go down on report cards Wanna drop out of the race All your friends declare you’re already there that you got to Spend the day in bed But if it’s all about just passing out in the bathroom I’m stuck in the back rooms of my head All your friends are going out and meeting people Here’s the church and here’s the steeple You’re going nowhere You’re going nowhere So you stick your books and see the world from there You kid yourself that maybe you’ll go somewhere But you’re going nowhere You’re going nowhere You don’t need to You don’t need to be somebody that you’re not You don’t need to You don’t need to be someone You don’t need to You don’t need to You don’t need to be someone You don’t need to You don’t need to You don’t need to be the brightest one in the classroom So you try for second place You don’t need to be ambitious past all reason I don’t wanna drop out of the race All your friends declare you’re already there that you got to Spend the day in bed But if it’s all about just passing out in the bathroom I’m stuck in the back rooms of my head If it’s all about just passing out in the bathroom

4. 2003 03:07

2003 you came to be But your eyes were closed so you could not see That this life would only fade away By seventeen you’re in between Suburban streets and Christmas trees Living life to seize the day But this surely can’t last forever Blink and you’ll miss it and it’s over You let your beating heart grow colder You try so hard to not get older You can give the passing hours your cold shoulder Blink and you’ll miss it and it’s over 2003 was just a dream Your friends are ghosts except for me You never will be truly free So grab your coat and find your keys And run off to where your heart leads Be the best set of bones that you can be You knew it couldn’t have lasted forever Looks like you missed it, now it’s over You let your beating heart grow colder You try so hard to not get older You can give the passing hours your cold shoulder Blink and you’ll miss it and it’s over Alright

5. Circadian Rhythm 04:09

It’s half past noon when she wakes up And sips sustenance from a beaten up solo cup It’s finally time to straighten out and sober up Slips on her shoes and walks down the street The cold air pricks color to her colorless cheeks And tonight she’ll try to finally get some sleep But it all feels fake Cause nothing else remains to be at stake You dream when you’re awake In the back of her mind She doesn’t want to be alone tonight She says give me a sign And her phone rings out with a message from some other man It’s circadian Half past noon she’s on her feet Head pounding to the rhythm of her heartbeat And opens the door to face the cold But she left her soul on a stain in the carpet floor To retrieve it she’ll always come back for more Just like before Don’t you ever find yourself wanting more Don’t you ever find yourself wanting more So when you close your eyes And try to fall asleep You dream electric sheep You dream electric sheep When your close your eyes And try to fall asleep Try to picture me Just try to picture me

6. Sixteen Missed Sunsets 03:05

Sixteen missed sunsets all wasted inside And it’s been hours since I cut myself a peace of mind Too many nights spent in my head in the sand So get up get out and show them all you can Three hundred sixty five sunrises overhead but I feel inclined to spend the day in bed Sixteen nights spent behind the steering wheel With no direction or a blessing of something real No destination, no ambition, nowhere I coulda ran Cause when we’re finished we’re right where we began Three hundred sixty five sunrises overhead but I feel inclined to spend the day in bed Three hundred sixty five sunrises overhead but I feel inclined to spend the day in bed

7. Lake Effect 04:27

Every day’s your canvas And every night your blank masterwork Paddle to Atlantis Or settle for a weekend in New York Come find me in Pennsylvania On the highway, I’ve been saying you Got to come to West Virginia See the Appalachians And when you think you’ve seen it all We can walk to Montreal Or find solace in the shadow of the Berlin Wall The memories and melodies From when you were in reveries Spending all the days in bed at home Thinking of where you haven’t been And just when all your plans are set They’re forecasting lake effect Spend another day all alone Don’t you feel snowed in Don’t you feel snowed in So I stay Wishing I can see you and drive away Believing in a romantic getaway So much to see when I’m awake So much to leave just locked away And we can drive, and free our minds, and pass the time And watch the sky fade from pink to a black shade of night But for now, just stay inside, and lose our minds to pass the time Feeling snowed in, overflowing, and dreaming of flight The memories and melodies From when you were in reveries Spending all the days in bed at home Thinking of where you haven’t been And just when all your plans are set They’re forecasting lake effect Spend another day all alone Don’t you feel snowed in Don’t you feel snowed in You barely got your foot out of the door You hear a knock you’re on the floor Just wondering what took you so long Time will pass and so will you So look around before you do Lay me down somewhere with a view And all I do and all I say Originates from a little place Where school gets closed and we stay home In long cold winter And where I go and what I do Is nothing when compared to you But I can see the sun from here too I can see the sun from here too

8. The Bridge 03:57

Take me to the place with the black rodents Even if it’s just a single day An Emerald City gleams in green and golden But in a slightly darker shade Take me to the place across the water Sink or swim you’re going in until we jump the border We’ll run away just for today escaping this armada You seem so close but yet so far away I couldn’t stay so I ran À Justin Won’t you lend me a hand? I gotta leave from this land I just cant Be a part of your tug of war no more, oh I couldn’t wait so I ran À Justin Can you give me a hand I wanna leave from this land So I’ll stand With the kids on the other side of the bridge Take me to the place where I belong La ou les signes sont redigee en les deux langues You can take me anywhere above the north forty-nine But I’ll be back again before long I couldn’t stay so I ran À Justin Won’t you lend me a hand? I gotta leave from this land I just cant Be a part of your tug of war no more, oh I couldn’t wait so I ran À Justin Can you give me a hand I wanna leave from this land So I’ll stand With the kids on the other side of the bridge À Justin À Justin

9. Electric Clouds 04:34

Wait, it’s getting late Inside is the side in which we’ll hide in which we’ll try to start To say, on this winter’s day Where the ice’s sheath brings warm relief to thaw your frost-bitten heart And tell, where do you hope you’ll go The places which you’ll travel to and people that you’ll know But for now, it just goes to show Nothing seems to take our minds from lake effect snow Why don’t we sit and hear the silent symphonies Cause for once you’re not the hemlock to a sullen Socrates Why don’t we watch the wind colliding with the trees And listen to the clouds go by Wait, it’s not too late It never looks the same through a windowpane but Nothing to negate and the shape of a snowflake Brings microcosms of cattle spottings That forgot about their fate So stay, if just for a moment Until we’ve shown it on its way Because today, the blizzard’s burning And the world is turning In slow decay Why don’t we sit and hear the silent symphonies Cause for once you’re not the hemlock to a sullen Socrates Why don’t we watch the wind colliding with the trees And listen to the clouds go by Why don’t we sit and hear the falling of the leaves Cause I can only feel the impact of your skin on cotton fleece Why don’t we watch the birds just gliding south with ease And listen to the clouds go by

10. Silence Speaks 03:51

I’ll never find the words to tell you How much your silence speaks And it radiated upwards Atop a hill for us to see When you showed me all the pictures That you captured from the screen Did you know in that one moment That you didn’t wanna be You look so much like your brother Did you stop to enjoy the view But your silence speaks like no other I walked the maze for you And I haven’t slept for days The bags under my eyes are omnipresent Why’d you slip away There’s nothing I can say You look so much like your brother Did you stop to enjoy the view But your silence speaks like no other I walked the maze for you And I haven’t slept for days The bags under my eyes are omnipresent Why’d you slip away There’s nothing else to say And all I do or say Is a product of your way And wherever you’ll go I just wanted you to know

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"Cut off from live performances, Buffalo musicians get creative"
— The Buffalo News

2003

During the quarantine, I had some time on my hands. We all did. I decided to do the only thing I could to remain sane: create. We collectively experienced a whirlwind of emotions and inhibitions localized within the claustrophobic space of our homes and minds. Many of us were reminded of our humanity - our inescapable mortality. These times are a constant reminder of the fact that our days are numbered. We can spend a lifetime searching for our purpose, chasing our ambitions, or just spending the days in bed. Nothing changes the fact that someday it will all be suddenly and relentlessly over. These songs were the product of that idea swirling through my head for months to the backdrop of my house’s walls. “I don’t need time,” Duke Ellington once mused, “what I need is a deadline.” From the minute we were born to the day we die, we carry a responsibility to live like we’ll never see another sunset. Like every day is a blank canvas. So live well. Love freely. Be your beautiful self.

I want to thank each and every one of you for being my inspiration in everyday life. You all give me the willingness to write. I hope that you’ll pay it forward. These months were taken from us, but let this serve as a reminder to take no aspect of your life for granted - to value every beautiful experience with an intensity equal to that with which you missed them.

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